I was also told that there is no way of me having kids ever. The problem was that I never menstruated regularly - only about once a year. Three years later I was shocked to discover that I'm pregnant. At seven weeks I had a miscarrage. My heart was broken, yet releaved cause i was only twenty at the time and without a good job. Three years after my first pregnancy, yup, I'm pregnant again. I feared another loss. At 10 weeks I started bleeding, but only descovered a bloodclot in my womb. Everything went fine and at 12 weeks the gynie told us were having twins. Shocked as could be, I was very happy. One month later they told us that one baby is not going to make it, she was severely abnormal. My hopes died in an instant. I wanted to abort but could not take a healthy baby's life to save a sick one. I kept the pregnancy and at 29 weeks, at a routine checkup, they saw a third membrane on the scan, but no baby. So basicly I had one full baby, one half baby and one ungrown embrio. Confused and shocked, I then remembered of funny dull pains in my pelvis. After telling the Specialist, she checked me and said i was in labour. Now things change as we worry about the survival of the healthy baby being born at 29 weeks. I had to undergo a emergency C-section. Nothing like I'd expected it to be. How i thought my last moments with twin 2 would be, was not like it at all. Twin 1 weighed only 1kg, approx 2 pounds, she was rushed to the trauma unit. After alot of struggle, because her cord was too short, twin 2 was born and she was still alive. At this stage i started feeling sharp pains in my back, wich obviously means that life is coming back. They put twin 2 on my lap while cutting the cord. She died instantly. She had no lungs, rectum, genitals, bladder, kidneys, hip bones, pelvis bones, her spine was badly twisted, she had two left legs-one facing backwards, the organs she had was hanging out a whole in her tummy and she only had half a chest bone. It's very hard knowing your baby is going to die in a few seconds and there's nothing you can do. I only saw her face after birth and saw the post-mortem photos later.
Twin one was in ICU for 2 weeks and in total in hospital for 2 months to gain weight and recover. Today she is very beautiful, she's a model for children clothing. She is now one year old and still wears 0-3 month baby clothes. She's vibrant and has a lot of soul.
So girls and mommies to be, When a miracle like mine comes your way, even if all of it isn't a happy ending, grab it with both hands. Do alot of reading on pregnancy and look after yourself. I can fall pregnant again, I've proved that, but my baby girl will forever miss her baby angel sister.
Take care
Sad and happy mommy
